Liming wrote:Hi,tkylo
I'm Chinese and currently a sophomore like you, studying sociology at the university which you called it "Harvard in Shanghai". (If I am right, you meant FDU) It's the final month of this semester and I have been bewildered just like you do.
I am always curious and willing to work hard, however, I have no interest in my current major and what is worse, I have no clue about my real passion. My GPA is lower than yours and my major is such a "cold" one. Just like you said, I am quite "upset and stressed with my future".
It was the fear of uncertainty that led me to this forum (I suppose you are here for the same reason)and I actually have gained just little knowledge about LSAT so far. So I can't help you on this topic, but I did just create this account to write to you, for I see myself in you and I think my words may be of some help.
Firstly I want to say, life is something hard to quantify. You can't measure your life by NUMBERS too much. I know you are a math major, maybe the inertial thinking makes you look at the real life this way. But I think there are things way more valuable than the numbers you mentioned. 70k is indeed very expensive than those Chinese universities ,and an astronomical price for most Chinese family to even have a think. But you have been lucky to be there and enrolled at an excellent university. Why you are afraid to end up with nothing? The knowledge and ability you gain there, the people you meet there, the memories you collect there…I would not say these are "nothing". These are some of the most wonderful things of life. Please savor your life there!
The same is true for college ranking. I am not sure if you meant that you had problem with gaokao 志愿 which caused your missing of the best school here in Shanghai. I agree ranking is largely related to the qualification of the schools, but it doesn't matter that much, especially when you put this into a life scale. Reading your comment "if no t14 law school admits me, my life is..", I am actually a little bit surprised. If a student in my hometown, which is remote and very poor, say this to me, I would understand very well because high education is the only way for them to climb up. But you are learning in the US, which means you are exposed to the world's best resources and opportunities! Uncountable potentials and possibilities are waiting ahead! Oh how I envy you… I assure you that if no t14 law school admits you, you have top 20,top 30 in the law school list. Besides, you have more than 1000 different ways to live your life.
I am not sure what kind of "financial problem" you are in, but I understand that could be the major concern. My point is, knowledge is priceless. Make full use of your semesters there and enjoy, worries never help. If you are determined to take LSAT, just get started and stop worrying about your future so badly. Life is cruel, but it is also so colorful.
Very inspirational post. Kudos for signing up just to help out this young chap as well!
I have to say that parts of what you mention also resonates with me, like the bit about your major.
Coincidentally, I'm Chinese myself, but I doubt that our lack of passion stems from biological roots (at least, I hope not).
Anyway, a speaker at my graduation commencement had something like this to say:
"You're not born knowing what to do. That's up to you. It took me 20 years to find what I really wanted in life.
The journey to your desired career may not be so clear-cut, but it's there waiting for you, however long it may take."
So while you may still be unsure of what it is that you're searching for, that's okay.
You're still young. You have a long road filled with obstacles, but life is about conquering those demons.
Life can also be a bitch, but make it your bitch, right? Also, have you considered law school?
