I then took the Blueprint live class prep in Berkeley, CA in preparation for the Oct. 11' test. I raised my practice scores up to the 162 range but choked hard on the test. I was in denial, surely it couldn't have been as bad as I thought...I didn't cancel. Even bigger mistake. The result: 150

I then retook the Blueprint course in order to prepare for the June 12' test. This time my practice test were up to 164 by the end. I took the test and again I believe I underperformed. I have no idea what the score is going to be. Since I cannot retest again until next June I am not planning to cancel (unless I change my mind in the next few hours).
If this is indeed another less than stellar score what the hell do I do? This test has caused much anxiety. I have never had a problem getting nervous and panicking on part of the test (games section) before in my academic career. I always regarded myself as a very good test taker. Now I know some of you might be thinking that maybe law school just isn't for me at this point and you may be right (but I really hope not) and believe me I have given this a lot of thought. However, I am determined to attend law school. My application is becoming more and more ugly though. If indeed I believe the score I will receive is sub 160 should I just cancel it today? I have thought about this but either way next year I would be applying with either 4 scores on record or 3 scores and a cancellation and I think those two scenarios are close enough to being equal to justify me not cancelling my score from last week. Thanks in advance for any and all responses. I need help!