This time around I thought I could do better. Going into the test I felt very optimistic, because I scored a 178 on my last practice test. Monday, the first two sections went excellent. Logic games and then logical reasoning. I'm pretty sure I got every problem right on logic games and finished in about 32 minutes. The second section I think I did very well. There were only a couple of problems that worried me a bit.
The third section however, which was logic games (and the one that counted) was a disaster. In the middle of setting up the first game the sleep attacks started to poor on. The rest of that section's a blur. I think I made it through the first game with great difficulty; if I was giving a basic 9th grade algebra 1 quiz in this state I think I would've flunked. I think I tried to do second game, fell into multiple "micro sleeps", and just made barely educated guesses on game problems, and just gave up and randomly filled in games 3 and 4 without trying any problems. I don't think I would've gotten more correct if I actually tried to complete the problem, so I figured I should try and rest my mind and if that was just the experimental I would still be on pace for a great score.
Anyways, the reading comp and logical reasoning sections were a disaster. My self imposed break + the official break+ 20 more more milligrams of adderall did nothing to lift myself out of the state I was in. I could barely keep my eyes awake and although I do not have cataplexy, I felt like I was going to collapse from exhaustion. I knew that even if the first logic games counted, and if I did as good on it and the first logical reasoning as I though, there was still no way I did better than a 162. I filled in the part of the answer sheet to cancel my score, and brough my stuff up to the main proctors and told them I was not feeling well and had to leave.
Anyways sorry to bore you with all the details; I think I'm insecure about having narcolepsy, since I was not diagnosed until 18. I was always thought of by others as being lazy prior to my diagnosis and I've always bought into it. I always seem to feel that if I try to get an accommodation or mentbring it up that others will think I'm just using it as a crutch, which is why I feel like whenever I bring it up (which is ultra rare as an undergrad I never registered with my schools disabilities office) I have to really qualify how it affects me. Anyways I'm wondering if I should just stick with a 162 or try and take it in October?
This test has made me feel better about my 162. I don't think I could do much better under normal testing conditions. The only way I will take it again is if I can get an accommodation, and I've how difficult that can be. Am I better off sending in my apps the first day the school's I want to apply to are accepting applications, or should I take it in October if I get accommodations that I think will "level the playing field" for me?
Narcolepsy can be pretty unpredictable, so if they would allow me to have accommodations that would even be helpful. I don't get sleep attacks where I just fall over, like the narcoleptic in Deuce Bigalow. When I get sleep attacks I just get really sleep to the point where if I'm stationary unless I fight really hard to stay awake, I might dose off shortly; usually microsleeps that last for just seconds and occur intermittently. They occur randomly, so if I were to be allowed lets say 2 breaks- one after the second, one of the 4th, that might be bad if I'm breaking when my energy level is up. Would they allow me to have breaks as needed?
Anyways sorry for blabbing on and if anyone read this entire post it was very nice of you or if not I would still appreciate to hear what you think
Thanks!Edit: I should add that my gpa was somewhere between 3.43-3.46 and I plan on applying to UPenn (i'm sure with a 162 or even a better score it would take a miracle), Temple (given the likely event that I don't get accepted to UPenn, I definitely want to go to Temple), Drexel, Villanova, Widener, Penn State, and Rutgers-Camden.
