PepperJack wrote:If I knew what I knew now, I never would have gone only because you have more control over 1L grades than you do over hiring stuff. You need to fit a prototype and if you don't, grades can't help you.
But it sounds like it's easier to drop out than work your ass off, and you are also intimidated. I think being intimidated suggests you may do better than you think. If you don't think you're a special genius, you're prone to work harder and likely have more interesting analysis. I think on exams if you're in do great or drop out mode, you should just let it all hang out there and not second guess yourself. I found that an exam that has some nonsense and some very astute points always does better than a constantly pretty good exam. Don't get over confident, and just work your butt off. If you blow up and place at the top of your class you're in great shape. Work is not like law school. Honestly, I don't even think the professors like teaching (with very few exceptions).
Incoherent rambling.
On-topic: OP, it sounds like you're trying to spin a serious personal failure as something positive. Sour grapes to the extreme: "I can't (don't want to work hard enough to) have a good legal career, so I never wanted it anyway."
The life of most big law associates is fan-fucking-tastic.
Ludicrously high pay, interesting and intellectually-challenging work, couth colleagues, and, yes, prestige off the charts.
Also, re: no free time to have a relationship or spend money: My firm requires 1900 hrs / year to be eligible for bonus. That's a sub-40 billable hour work week with a two week vacation per year. Conservatively, that works out to, what, 10-11 hours in the office, five days a week? (Many associates fall short of 1900, too.) That leaves plenty of time to spend the [ludicrous/unbelievable/inexplicable amount of] money.
TL;DR: OP couldn't hack it and wants to convince you (and himself) that it's OK because successful attorneys have terrible lives -- but he's (she's?) wrong.