What spurred all of this was that one day, someone gave me a last-second assignment, even though I was already occupied with something else--and even though my cointerns were visibly twindling their thumbs & playing Street Fighter or something on their smartphones. And I don't mean they're on their smartphones waiting for a message that Grandma is recovering just fine at the hospital. I mean when you walk by, you can clearly see that it's a button-mashing video game in the Street Fighter mold.pancakes3 wrote:1) I don't know what you mean by flair. I'm pretty sure I've said that repeatedly. What do you mean by flair? If it means you did a good and thorough job, that's not flair. That's just doing what's expected, no matter if you're at a V10 or shitlaw.
2) You didn't get a SA at a firm and now you're trying to make up for it by turning in work product that you think would demonstrate your "horsepower" so you can get a second bite at the BL apple because your 1L grades resulted in you striking out. That's feels a lot like "compensating for grades." How would you characterize it?
3) You've actually stuck to your script of denying constructive criticism quite nicely.
I don't know why it's so hard for you to admit that you think you're better than your cointerns. It's obvious. You think they're stuck doing doc review while you've been asking for *substantive* assignments. You also think you've flaired your way into turning in work that's a "cut above" even though you have no idea what their work product looks like. I'm not sure what "context" that's supposed to provide other than you think you're better than they are - either you're substantively smarter, or craftier in being able to avoid menial assignments.
I don't know why it's so hard for you to admit that you're being defensive when confronted. Every single poster has told you your flair is misguided and you're still defending your use of it.
I especially don't know why you can't admit that this all an effort to compensate for low grades. There's no shame in that. The curve is what the curve is. Some people strike out at OCI. Hustling for a second chance is expected. It's not a deficiency. But know that your energy is misguided. As long as your work product passes the "good enough" bar, any additional flair is not going to make a difference in your supervisor passing your resume along, and the hiring contacts aren't going to ask "does he/she have the horsepower?" They'll look at the resume and either give you a call or toss it.
The assigner said that that was because the other attorneys for whom I had already done work said to him that those other attorneys commended my previous work's quality and said that they thought I could handle this upcoming assignment's complexity.
Meanwhile, the only things my cointerns have said that's even remotely work-related were frustration with the doc review they're stuck doing. But you're right (as you always are)--what do I know? They probably do a little doc review here and there interspersed with ghostwriting the next ConLaw treatise with Kathleen Sullivan.