Need help figuring out how to handle major mistake I made at character and fitness Forum

[RichardSaunders68]

In desperate need of advice from someone who knows the Character and Fitness process.

Got all the way through law school. Took the bar, multiple times. Eventually passed.To anyone struggling with how it feels hopeless--it is not. I have felt that uncertainty about my future, but I promise you you CAN do it. You're learning and progressing more than you think. Plan your work and work your plan.

Onto my horrible self made situation that has me on the brink of mental breakdown. I did something in my last year of law school that doesn't reflect a worthy character. It is an honesty thing. I disclosed it, but, as I was ashamed of my conduct and was scared to tell the truth because I didnt want my partner to leave me if she found out what I did, I didn't admit the extent of my wilfulness. I am extremely ashamed of what I did, and of how I didn't tell the truth, so I need to figure out what to do now that there's a hearing scheduled on the matter. I just lost my job over it and I need to tell my fiancé about the problem, which I thought I could make go away and didnt share because I am terrified of losing the one thing that really matters to me. I suspect that at my hearing they will show that my conduct wasnt accidental.

I need to know what to do, and I think I should just admit it. I need to do the right thing. But at the same time I worry that that will look even worse and may damn me.

What happens to people who weren't truthful in their application but come clean at the hearings? Does this happen regularly? Do they ever look at that with favor as evidence of change?

I am worried that I ruined my entire life and squandered half my life on this project of becoming a lawyer, all because of a stupid choice I made. I am really trying to be a better person, and I worry that it might be too little too late.

Am I completely screwed, or have people come out of situations like this before?

Thanks for any advice you may have.

And to the bar takers.....take this from me....always always always do the right thing. You'll feel better about it, and you'll not muck up your life. Whatever you think you'll gain, its not worth it.