Part of me wants a full year with the chance to do anything I please, specifically regarding art. I want to work on my writing etc. and just absorb myself in it. It seems like the best chance possible. The kicker is that I have been working a few years and couldn't do this before mainly because I had LS in the back of my mind. I figured being under-employed or unemployed would kill my T14 dreams. I would love to just "go for it" and have an excellent plan B totally secured.
On the other hand, I doubt I really have what it takes to do creative stuff, and I'm "wasting" yet another year.
In the big scheme of things however, it seems like I might as well defer and have a year to really say "I tried."
I am totally waffling about this and miserable.
