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by delusional » Thu May 12, 2011 7:32 pm
I hope it's okay if I use this thread to rant a little. I'm getting fed up with law school and it's 0L May. I made my decision a few weeks back, and it's been such a drain - it seems like every option carries with it so much weight. Do I prestige-whore and uproot my family? Commute to a closer (but still far) school, allowing everything to remain stable in exchange for a few US News rungs? So I harassed one school to up their offer, another to answer me faster. I felt like a jerk to them, and the horse trading took a toll on me, but I figured that once I decided, things would become more clear.
And I decided. But the decision really didn't make it easier. Now I'm back to the same grind - working all day and trying to find the time to navigate housing, insurance, schools, etc. in a city that's a plane ride away. And they need ANOTHER copy of my undergraduate transcripts and my medical records, and I suck at red tape. I am trying not to be self centered; it freaking drives me insane when people say things like, boo hoo, my BMW got scratched. I know I'm fortunate to be in the position I am - flexible enough (although barely), grounded enough to make it work, surrounded by mostly supportive family.
My daughter is not thrilled about moving, although my wife was wise enough to lay the groundwork (we visited a friend of a friend who lived near the school, and she befriended the girl next door, before we even decided to move.) I'm looking to rent out my condo, which, as we've discussed ITT would otherwise involve taking a big loss, and frankly, would result in us burning through the money during law school. Wife and I are going to need to continue working until like August 15 to keep us fed, clothed, and insured, and then we will need to enlist neighbors, friends, and relatives to load up a UHaul which I will then unload myself; beds, bookcases, sofas and all - a couple days before orientation. Forget LEEWS and GTM; I'll be lucky if I know what books I'll need for class. And that is when I expect the real difficulties to start. I was prepared to work hard, but seriously, Arrow, Xeoh and MegaTTTron? With a wife and kids, while my bones are aching from moving an entire three bedroom house? I know I'm doing this in pursuit of more security and a better life, but it's getting harder and harder, and the payoff, hell, the investment even, seems to be getting further and further away. Oh well. Back to your regularly programmed cynicism and snark.