Major test anxiety - scared it'll happen again
Posted: Tue Jun 07, 2016 10:53 am
Hi all,
This will probably be redundant, given that it's a common problem, but I need to gain some perspective, as I'm currently experiencing something like the "bargaining" stage (i.e. of 5 stages of grief) following my disastrous LSAT experience yesterday.
I felt my first section was going fine, but in the middle of the section, I started to blank and promptly began panicking. I ended up guessing on 4-5 questions, and on the second section, I felt so out of it that I didn't finish. On the third section, I basically just gave up. I ended up cancelling my score. Given my mediocre 3.6 uGPA, I really need 170+ to feel optimistic about my chances at scholarships/my schools of interest.
Now, I have to make sure such anxiety doesn't consume me during my the September administration. I often have "normal" test anxiety, but I don't think I've felt it to such a degree. Maybe I was underprepared? My PT conditions probably didn't parallel those of the actual test environment very well. But lately, I've also be experiencing what I can best be described as a kind of dread(?) underlying my anxiety, in which I feel like I don't deserve a good score. I see so many people working very hard to get good scores (not only on LSAT but some taking other important admissions exams) yet don't fare well. What makes me deserve a good score? Why do certain people have a greater aptitude towards these sorts of things than others?
I actually genuinely enjoy the types of thinking required on the LSAT, but sometimes, I tend to ruminate on things like the above during practices as well. I can't decide whether it's narcissistic or self-deprecating. Anyways, I probably didn't describe my situation all that well, but if you have any advice on test anxiety, building test-taking stamina, advice on my situation above, I'd appreciate it.
This will probably be redundant, given that it's a common problem, but I need to gain some perspective, as I'm currently experiencing something like the "bargaining" stage (i.e. of 5 stages of grief) following my disastrous LSAT experience yesterday.
I felt my first section was going fine, but in the middle of the section, I started to blank and promptly began panicking. I ended up guessing on 4-5 questions, and on the second section, I felt so out of it that I didn't finish. On the third section, I basically just gave up. I ended up cancelling my score. Given my mediocre 3.6 uGPA, I really need 170+ to feel optimistic about my chances at scholarships/my schools of interest.
Now, I have to make sure such anxiety doesn't consume me during my the September administration. I often have "normal" test anxiety, but I don't think I've felt it to such a degree. Maybe I was underprepared? My PT conditions probably didn't parallel those of the actual test environment very well. But lately, I've also be experiencing what I can best be described as a kind of dread(?) underlying my anxiety, in which I feel like I don't deserve a good score. I see so many people working very hard to get good scores (not only on LSAT but some taking other important admissions exams) yet don't fare well. What makes me deserve a good score? Why do certain people have a greater aptitude towards these sorts of things than others?
I actually genuinely enjoy the types of thinking required on the LSAT, but sometimes, I tend to ruminate on things like the above during practices as well. I can't decide whether it's narcissistic or self-deprecating. Anyways, I probably didn't describe my situation all that well, but if you have any advice on test anxiety, building test-taking stamina, advice on my situation above, I'd appreciate it.