Retake?
Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2011 9:58 pm
I want to know if I should retake or not, but I'm not confident I can actually perform better.
I've always had terrible test anxiety as far as standardized testing goes. I do TERRIBLE. I've never felt calm during them and frequently have anxiety/panic attacks.
I was PTing consistently between 154-158 for three months and miraculously pulled off a 160 on my October test day. I've only taken it once but I think I was insanely lucky. For whatever reason, I was calm going into the test (I've legit never been that calm on any test ever). I was actually really happy with my 160 (which I know goes against every other TLS user).
I have a 3.5 GPA but now feel stuck. I live in a very saturated job market (Chicago) and my gf lives here. She's in no position to relocate easily and I don't know what to do. I honestly believe I performed at my potential. I excel in school but always freeze up on tests. I don't have money to take a prep course. I do think I studied poorly for some of my prep (I probably took more PTs than necessary instead of diligently reviewing each question).
My biggest hesitations in retaking are that 1) I won't improve and will have wasted a year for no reason, 2) On my re-take, I'll experience an intense panic attack, and 3) I'll feel like a failure (might sound stupid but I face a LOT of pressure...a lot) for postponing plans for a year.
Sorry if this sounds whiny, but I've been having panic attacks for the past week or so over this decision. I know a 160 is low (especially by TLS standards), but I know I outperformed my PTs and don't believe I'd do much better on a re-take. Do I apply this cycle anyways?
I've always had terrible test anxiety as far as standardized testing goes. I do TERRIBLE. I've never felt calm during them and frequently have anxiety/panic attacks.
I was PTing consistently between 154-158 for three months and miraculously pulled off a 160 on my October test day. I've only taken it once but I think I was insanely lucky. For whatever reason, I was calm going into the test (I've legit never been that calm on any test ever). I was actually really happy with my 160 (which I know goes against every other TLS user).
I have a 3.5 GPA but now feel stuck. I live in a very saturated job market (Chicago) and my gf lives here. She's in no position to relocate easily and I don't know what to do. I honestly believe I performed at my potential. I excel in school but always freeze up on tests. I don't have money to take a prep course. I do think I studied poorly for some of my prep (I probably took more PTs than necessary instead of diligently reviewing each question).
My biggest hesitations in retaking are that 1) I won't improve and will have wasted a year for no reason, 2) On my re-take, I'll experience an intense panic attack, and 3) I'll feel like a failure (might sound stupid but I face a LOT of pressure...a lot) for postponing plans for a year.
Sorry if this sounds whiny, but I've been having panic attacks for the past week or so over this decision. I know a 160 is low (especially by TLS standards), but I know I outperformed my PTs and don't believe I'd do much better on a re-take. Do I apply this cycle anyways?