I want to quit my firm but am afraid.
Posted: Thu May 16, 2019 5:37 pm
Currently a 3rd year (T14, shitty grades) associate who should actually be a 5th year (took a 2 yr deduction to change into a different practice group/join biglaw). I've been at my current firm for 2+ years now and plan to still till next year (so, I'll have been here 3+ years).
My firm is extraordinarily toxic and has horrible turnover (practice group is big - double digit associates - but we lost over 1/3 of our associates in the past 12 months). Partners are terrible managers and recently had a bad experience with a very jr. partner who is known to do a lot of things at the last minute and throw an associate under the bus for it (she didnt throw me under the bus, but she used me as a punching bag, which left a bad taste in my mouth). Mid-levels almost nonexistent and the ones still here are gunning so hard for partner they do little to help juniors and actively treat juniors like competition (badmouth/ignore/treat them like shit).
I'm on my 2nd full year of 2100 hrs (non-NY/DC major market - think SF, SD, BOS). I think i'm at least an ok associate. I'm now so terrified of biglaw I keep hesitating to leave because I fear it'll be worse/the same somewhere else, and I'll have lost the few mentors/cheerleaders (partners) I've made at my firm.
Does anyone have any advice for how I should proceed? Thanks!
My firm is extraordinarily toxic and has horrible turnover (practice group is big - double digit associates - but we lost over 1/3 of our associates in the past 12 months). Partners are terrible managers and recently had a bad experience with a very jr. partner who is known to do a lot of things at the last minute and throw an associate under the bus for it (she didnt throw me under the bus, but she used me as a punching bag, which left a bad taste in my mouth). Mid-levels almost nonexistent and the ones still here are gunning so hard for partner they do little to help juniors and actively treat juniors like competition (badmouth/ignore/treat them like shit).
I'm on my 2nd full year of 2100 hrs (non-NY/DC major market - think SF, SD, BOS). I think i'm at least an ok associate. I'm now so terrified of biglaw I keep hesitating to leave because I fear it'll be worse/the same somewhere else, and I'll have lost the few mentors/cheerleaders (partners) I've made at my firm.
Does anyone have any advice for how I should proceed? Thanks!