how to keep going?
Posted: Thu Aug 22, 2013 12:02 pm
i guess this is going to be a little bit of a rant, but it's more of a question to people about coping with the endless rejection that is the post law-school job search and how to maintain a sense of purpose and motivation.
first, some context, i am probably median (maybe a little below) at a T15, 4.0 ivy undergrad, strong extracurriculars, worked in consulting before law school, worked fed gigs each summer. with my gpa, i am no stranger to rejection and adjusting my expectations downwards. but it's all starting to get really old.
like, in the last week i got rejected from a firm that i thought i had a pretty good callback at, got rejected from a non-profit where i applied to work as part of a fellowship (they would not be paying me, i would secure the fellowship on my own) and got rejected from working with a solo practitioner part time during the school year who said he loved my resume. so we have three very different levels of rejection here and, after applying to hundreds of jobs over the course of law school and experiencing rejections it should be nothing new, but, right now i'm finding it really hard to keep my head up and be optimistic.
i still go through the motions of applying to at least a job a day and networking like hell (yes, i applied to a job today and yesterday and sent networking emails both days and met with someone yesterday). everyone tells me my resume is great and i am likeable and doing everything right and, although i know that is no guarantee of success, if i am doing all the right things with no results then maybe the problem is that there are NEVER ANY results for anyone. but, i don't exist in a vacuum where i can ignore that some classmates are finding success (meaning it IS achievable) while i am earnest and hardworking and quietly floundering. i feel like i am 28 and still a child with no idea what i am going to do when i grow up. and i am terrified that my future will be earning $12 an hour as a contractor and that i got into the wrong thing.
this isn't to say i'm depressed (i see a therapist and take meds preventatively more than anything else) and i love every aspect of my life except my gpa and dismal employment prospects. but, plugging along only staves off these horrible thoughts of never-ending professional failure and meaninglessness so long. i'm not gong to give up because i never do, but i'd really like to know that there are some success stories out there and how the many people in the same place as me keep going without letting these feelings ruin all the other good things in their lives.
sorry, this got to be really long. i just felt like i/many some other tls-ers needed a coping thread that looks at the bigger picture.
first, some context, i am probably median (maybe a little below) at a T15, 4.0 ivy undergrad, strong extracurriculars, worked in consulting before law school, worked fed gigs each summer. with my gpa, i am no stranger to rejection and adjusting my expectations downwards. but it's all starting to get really old.
like, in the last week i got rejected from a firm that i thought i had a pretty good callback at, got rejected from a non-profit where i applied to work as part of a fellowship (they would not be paying me, i would secure the fellowship on my own) and got rejected from working with a solo practitioner part time during the school year who said he loved my resume. so we have three very different levels of rejection here and, after applying to hundreds of jobs over the course of law school and experiencing rejections it should be nothing new, but, right now i'm finding it really hard to keep my head up and be optimistic.
i still go through the motions of applying to at least a job a day and networking like hell (yes, i applied to a job today and yesterday and sent networking emails both days and met with someone yesterday). everyone tells me my resume is great and i am likeable and doing everything right and, although i know that is no guarantee of success, if i am doing all the right things with no results then maybe the problem is that there are NEVER ANY results for anyone. but, i don't exist in a vacuum where i can ignore that some classmates are finding success (meaning it IS achievable) while i am earnest and hardworking and quietly floundering. i feel like i am 28 and still a child with no idea what i am going to do when i grow up. and i am terrified that my future will be earning $12 an hour as a contractor and that i got into the wrong thing.
this isn't to say i'm depressed (i see a therapist and take meds preventatively more than anything else) and i love every aspect of my life except my gpa and dismal employment prospects. but, plugging along only staves off these horrible thoughts of never-ending professional failure and meaninglessness so long. i'm not gong to give up because i never do, but i'd really like to know that there are some success stories out there and how the many people in the same place as me keep going without letting these feelings ruin all the other good things in their lives.
sorry, this got to be really long. i just felt like i/many some other tls-ers needed a coping thread that looks at the bigger picture.