My Personal Statement! Please Destroy,
Posted: Thu Sep 06, 2012 4:34 pm
I became very strong under Manuel’s mentorship. His approach to teaching me golf was undoubtedly inspired by his many years with the Colombian National Army. He was my father’s age, but his role in my life was more like of an older brother. On most summer and weekend days, he would pick me up in his old Fiat before sunrise. We would spend entire days at Campo de Golf La Florida where he would make me do 10 pushups for every bad shot I made or for any golf protocol I violated. Besides swing mechanics, our time together included lessons on how to psychologically disarm an opponent during a match play, and he would tell me stories, often inappropriate, of violent wars and sexual conquests. At 14, I was the best amateur player at the golf club where I was given honorary membership, and I was also considered one of the best junior golfers in the region. I was 15 the day that my sister and I boarded a plane to come live with our mother in the United States. It was the only time I ever saw Manuel cry.
Initially, Diana and I didn’t realize the real reasons behind our father’s sudden decision to send us to Miami to live with our mother, who had been living in the U.S. for a couple of years. He had always admired and even venerated American culture, and we believed that the change was meant solely to broaden our horizons and for us to learn English. Even though those things were some of the positive outcomes of our immigration, I soon learned that the real reason for our departure from Colombia was that my father had lost his job and was then suffering financial hardship. After having had a very comfortable childhood of country clubs, housemaids and private schools, my sister and I were both abruptly challenged by need. My after-school golf practices were replaced by my new job as a janitor; on the weekends I would help a truck driver friend of my mom do his deliveries. The classical guitar provided my strongest connection with the past, as I had taken lessons from a very young age. I spent most of my free time immersed in the works of Albeniz, Barrueco, Bach and other masters, that was a luxury that even a poor immigrant kid could afford.
College wasn’t an option at the time I graduated High School. Tensions at home had made me anxious to leave the house and for that I needed full-time work. Additionally, I had also learned to associate academic environment with constant bullying and tedious curricula that seemed designed more to keep me busy than to teach me. I spent the next five years in a learning process that included starting a successful commercial cleaning business, an unsuccessful trucking operation, several odd jobs such as bartending, driving an 18-wheel truck across the country, and eventually an office job for a fresh cut flower importer which paid well enough and had a schedule flexible enough that I could start college. The time away from school allowed me to grow emotionally, see new places, and meet very interesting people. The challenges that I faced, some of which appeared to be insurmountable at their time, had the fortunate outcome of ingraining in me a strong internal locus of control and the ability of being able to shift paradigms in order to solve difficult situations. Toughness proved necessary while not sufficient.
Although I was grateful for my job and my side projects, all of which afforded me a very good living, I was motivated to start college by the lack of purpose and significance that I felt behind my contributions to society as a business owner and employee. Academics hadn’t come easily to me before, so returning to school and applying myself to my studies required profound changes in my self-image and habits of thought and action. Making these changes required, I found, the same type of introspection and mental re-wiring required of learning a new golf shot or overcoming a technically very difficult phrase when learning a classical piece for the guitar: one must re-train one’s mind and body to reject unhelpful actions and thoughts and replace them with successful ones. This psychological process requires intense self-discipline and honesty down to the most microcosmic level, wherein even the subtleties of internal communication can make a significant difference in achieving the intellectual equivalent of muscle memory. Internal communication became an important focus point in my effort to adopt this new paradigm. The nearly obsessive determination that I felt during this time brought me back to the driving-range at La Florida when Manuel would carefully monitor and correct my moves. I was now an adult, and I had to become my own Manuel.
My newfound love for academia and the encouragement of inspiring professors steered me towards an interest in studying law. The idea went on a positive feedback loop between my desire to follow a path of advocacy that would be meaningful and rewarding to others as well as to myself, and the great support that I receive from friends and family. I feel that my abilities, the same skills that helped me turn my life around: to reframe situations through language and careful analysis, can be of great value to society and to my future clients. Law school is the next great challenge in my life, and I will meet it with the same intellectual rigor and flexibility with which I have met all the others before.
Julian
Initially, Diana and I didn’t realize the real reasons behind our father’s sudden decision to send us to Miami to live with our mother, who had been living in the U.S. for a couple of years. He had always admired and even venerated American culture, and we believed that the change was meant solely to broaden our horizons and for us to learn English. Even though those things were some of the positive outcomes of our immigration, I soon learned that the real reason for our departure from Colombia was that my father had lost his job and was then suffering financial hardship. After having had a very comfortable childhood of country clubs, housemaids and private schools, my sister and I were both abruptly challenged by need. My after-school golf practices were replaced by my new job as a janitor; on the weekends I would help a truck driver friend of my mom do his deliveries. The classical guitar provided my strongest connection with the past, as I had taken lessons from a very young age. I spent most of my free time immersed in the works of Albeniz, Barrueco, Bach and other masters, that was a luxury that even a poor immigrant kid could afford.
College wasn’t an option at the time I graduated High School. Tensions at home had made me anxious to leave the house and for that I needed full-time work. Additionally, I had also learned to associate academic environment with constant bullying and tedious curricula that seemed designed more to keep me busy than to teach me. I spent the next five years in a learning process that included starting a successful commercial cleaning business, an unsuccessful trucking operation, several odd jobs such as bartending, driving an 18-wheel truck across the country, and eventually an office job for a fresh cut flower importer which paid well enough and had a schedule flexible enough that I could start college. The time away from school allowed me to grow emotionally, see new places, and meet very interesting people. The challenges that I faced, some of which appeared to be insurmountable at their time, had the fortunate outcome of ingraining in me a strong internal locus of control and the ability of being able to shift paradigms in order to solve difficult situations. Toughness proved necessary while not sufficient.
Although I was grateful for my job and my side projects, all of which afforded me a very good living, I was motivated to start college by the lack of purpose and significance that I felt behind my contributions to society as a business owner and employee. Academics hadn’t come easily to me before, so returning to school and applying myself to my studies required profound changes in my self-image and habits of thought and action. Making these changes required, I found, the same type of introspection and mental re-wiring required of learning a new golf shot or overcoming a technically very difficult phrase when learning a classical piece for the guitar: one must re-train one’s mind and body to reject unhelpful actions and thoughts and replace them with successful ones. This psychological process requires intense self-discipline and honesty down to the most microcosmic level, wherein even the subtleties of internal communication can make a significant difference in achieving the intellectual equivalent of muscle memory. Internal communication became an important focus point in my effort to adopt this new paradigm. The nearly obsessive determination that I felt during this time brought me back to the driving-range at La Florida when Manuel would carefully monitor and correct my moves. I was now an adult, and I had to become my own Manuel.
My newfound love for academia and the encouragement of inspiring professors steered me towards an interest in studying law. The idea went on a positive feedback loop between my desire to follow a path of advocacy that would be meaningful and rewarding to others as well as to myself, and the great support that I receive from friends and family. I feel that my abilities, the same skills that helped me turn my life around: to reframe situations through language and careful analysis, can be of great value to society and to my future clients. Law school is the next great challenge in my life, and I will meet it with the same intellectual rigor and flexibility with which I have met all the others before.
Julian
