P.S. I need some opinions on this P.S.
Posted: Thu Dec 08, 2011 12:37 am
Please let me know how you feel about the topic, content, structure, flow, grammer etc. I especially could use some help with conclusion. This is by no means ready to submit as is, I know that much, i would still like some input though Thanks for taking a look!!
As a young teen, I was a strong-minded, defiant kid, who lacked a sense of respect for authority, the law, or any set of guidelines. I couldn’t control myself; I acted on impulse. I was at the top of the class academically, but near the bottom behaviorally. I caused my parents and teachers much heartache and anguish. I wanted more than anyone else to correct my behavior, but for a number of years, I struggled with impulsivity
I began smoking cigarettes at age 12. I quickly became addicted and smoked between two and two and a half packs a day. Smoking which had become “my life” was destroying me physically, as I was diagnosed with chronic bronchitis. Even more damaging was the emotional toll my addiction took on me. My mind was controlled by nicotine. Crazy mood swings led to tumultuous inter-personal relationships. I couldn’t think straight; I never knew if the decision or thought going through my head was my own, or one put into my head by the ‘nicotine monster” that inhibited my brain. Quitting smoking became my number one agenda in life, all other plans and goals were put on the backburner, I struggled for years. After a while, I began to lose confidence in my ability to accomplish any of my goals. My thought process was “If I can’t quit smoking, a goal I wanted to achieve badly and one that I stood to gain a lot from, how I would be able to accomplish any of my other goals in life?” In December 2008 just before my 18th birthday, I got sick with the flu, which coupled with the chronic bronchitis I always had, made it impossible for me to smoke. I was bedridden for a week, and I managed to fight off the urge to smoke, I knew I was just too sick. I spent the many hours of that long, painful, December week thinking about smoking. I came to the realization that if there was ever going to be a time that I would finally quit, now would be the best, because I had a week’s head start. I reaffirmed to myself better than ever that the pros outweighed the cons and I made the commitment. I have been smoke- free for almost three full years now. The only reason I was successful in quitting was because I was determined and completely committed. With everyday that commitment just gets stronger. I am living an exceedingly higher quality of life than I was during my smoking years, and that realization keeps my commitment strong.
Not only am I physically feeling great today as a result of quitting smoking, but I am a different person emotionally as well. Smoking cigarettes was an impulsive behavior, one in which I was foregoing the consequence of the action for perceived momentary pleasure. So my mental decision to quit smoking, was really a much greater decision, it was a decision to change the way I lived life, to go from being an impulsive decision maker, to a premeditative one. What I am most grateful for however, is what quitting smoking did for my confidence. By quitting smoking I had essentially accomplished something I thought was nearly impossible. As a result I am reluctant to call anything “too difficult” anymore. I now enter every situation, whatever it may be with utter confidence that with dedicated hard work and determination, I will achieve my goal.
As a young teen, I was a strong-minded, defiant kid, who lacked a sense of respect for authority, the law, or any set of guidelines. I couldn’t control myself; I acted on impulse. I was at the top of the class academically, but near the bottom behaviorally. I caused my parents and teachers much heartache and anguish. I wanted more than anyone else to correct my behavior, but for a number of years, I struggled with impulsivity
I began smoking cigarettes at age 12. I quickly became addicted and smoked between two and two and a half packs a day. Smoking which had become “my life” was destroying me physically, as I was diagnosed with chronic bronchitis. Even more damaging was the emotional toll my addiction took on me. My mind was controlled by nicotine. Crazy mood swings led to tumultuous inter-personal relationships. I couldn’t think straight; I never knew if the decision or thought going through my head was my own, or one put into my head by the ‘nicotine monster” that inhibited my brain. Quitting smoking became my number one agenda in life, all other plans and goals were put on the backburner, I struggled for years. After a while, I began to lose confidence in my ability to accomplish any of my goals. My thought process was “If I can’t quit smoking, a goal I wanted to achieve badly and one that I stood to gain a lot from, how I would be able to accomplish any of my other goals in life?” In December 2008 just before my 18th birthday, I got sick with the flu, which coupled with the chronic bronchitis I always had, made it impossible for me to smoke. I was bedridden for a week, and I managed to fight off the urge to smoke, I knew I was just too sick. I spent the many hours of that long, painful, December week thinking about smoking. I came to the realization that if there was ever going to be a time that I would finally quit, now would be the best, because I had a week’s head start. I reaffirmed to myself better than ever that the pros outweighed the cons and I made the commitment. I have been smoke- free for almost three full years now. The only reason I was successful in quitting was because I was determined and completely committed. With everyday that commitment just gets stronger. I am living an exceedingly higher quality of life than I was during my smoking years, and that realization keeps my commitment strong.
Not only am I physically feeling great today as a result of quitting smoking, but I am a different person emotionally as well. Smoking cigarettes was an impulsive behavior, one in which I was foregoing the consequence of the action for perceived momentary pleasure. So my mental decision to quit smoking, was really a much greater decision, it was a decision to change the way I lived life, to go from being an impulsive decision maker, to a premeditative one. What I am most grateful for however, is what quitting smoking did for my confidence. By quitting smoking I had essentially accomplished something I thought was nearly impossible. As a result I am reluctant to call anything “too difficult” anymore. I now enter every situation, whatever it may be with utter confidence that with dedicated hard work and determination, I will achieve my goal.