So many questions/oddities here....
Now I'm back, I work 70 hours so I didn't have time to study, but I did complete my masters in psych and published my thesis while working.
If you can complete a masters/thesis while working, why do you not have time to study and retake the LSAT while working? Your LSAT score will get you markedly further in terms of getting admitted to a law school where you may have a “chance” at doing something you’re apparently interested in doing. Going to Loyola, John Marshall, or Chi-Kent gives you a better at becoming a run-of-the-mill court clerk (no JD required) than a judicial clerk.
But seriously though, if you’re investing 3 years of your life into law school, and which law school you attend will have a material impact on which job opportunities are attainable, why wouldn’t you invest 3 months to study for the test that will make the single largest impact in your ability to be admitted to a certain caliber of school?
Why deny that I'm special?
Everyone is special and unique. Therefore, no one is (you included).
But I think everyone is in their own way
I think you are getting in YOUR OWN way by ignoring the facts and evidence (and statistics) that people on TLS are offering you. If you do, one day your optimism and reality will have to have an honest heart-to-heart and it won’t be so pretty.
what makes the law in America to best thing ever to study is that there is room for every path and every story.
In reality, there isn’t room for every path and every story, at least not in the legal field. X = number of law students graduating from law school each year; Y = number of available legal jobs. X > Y.
Now there are only so many slots for that top firm and not every one is going to end up like mike or Harvey or Jessica or even Lewis from suits.. But that's not a bad thing.
You’re right about one thing: if you’re like Louis Litt, that is a bad thing.
I worked at several law firms after I left law school and was encouraged by attorneys in corporate law to go back because of my writing skills.
I know that I don't need a JD to write legislation.
However, I am at a point in life where I want to receive the correct training to write legalislation and for me that's law school.
“Legalislation?” Is that writing legislation for legalization? You wanting to draft pro-pot laws?
With this small sample size of your writing ability**, I’m having trouble seeing how these “attorneys in corporate law” complimented your writing “skills.” I’m also having trouble seeing how compliments from some corporate lawyer(s)—presumably some of the lawyers among your expansive network of lawyers who presumably graduated from some of the finest legal institutions in the great city of Chicago (excluding University of Chicago and Northwestern, of course)—have now inspired you to go to one of these aforementioned bastions (or bastards) of legal training to acquire, of all things, the necessary skills to write legislation.
**Exhibits of samples demonstrating excellent writing abilities and logical prowess:
Exhibit A : “what makes the law in America to best thing ever to study
is that there is room for every path and every story.” Say what?
Exhibit B: “I do follow my dreams because when I love what I do because that works for me
Exhibit C: “For mental health issues including my thesis subject
Exhibit D: "Numbers get everyone's attention, but it's
always exceptions to the rule which is why I posted this."
How about you read these books instead (or Google others): The Legislative Drafter’s Desk Reference, 2nd Edition. Lawrence E. Filson and Sandra L. Strokoff. CQ Press. Washington 2008; Legislative Drafter’s Deskbook. Tobias A. Dorsey. The Capitol Net. Alexandria VA. 2006.
It’s likely that among the schools you’ve gotten into, you: (a) won’t have such a specific course; (b) won’t actually teach you the skills (that you believe you need) to provide you any advantage in doing such work; and (c) provide you favorable odds to even get a job in the legal field (or if you do get one, have a sufficiently high salary to service the amounts of debt you’ll likely incur).
Just because you want to become a public servant doesn't mean that some government agency will just hire you automatically. Many legal and policy jobs in government are quite competitive and selective. That means they don't have to dip down to TTTs (third-tier toilets) to find anyone willing to become a "public servant." Do some more research on this to find how others ended up in the type of position you believe you want to also end up in.
I notice a theme though with your post—you’re not the first and won’t be the last—that you want to deny the facts presented to you because you believe you’re the exception to every rule and statistic. But know that this defies logic; which is why you had a sucky LSAT score to begin with.
TL;DR - Use whatever logic you have left and retake the LSAT, please!