You can take this advice with a grain of salt, and I am not a self-help professional by any means, but you seem a little disheartened about the whole process. I can certainly understand why you would feel that way, but just reading the following quote depresses me a little bit:
not sure I could score higher than around this number even if I studied starting now and took the June LSAT. Basically, I can't read fast enough and do the logic at the same time to get those big numbers. I have trouble with the logic (in all the sections, but mostly on reverse questions or questions that rely on reverse words ) more than with my ability to read fast even though I don't consider my myself a fast reader probably slow-medium to medium. Really, I feel like I missing something. It's like I have all the tools, but I can't put them together. I just don't think I can fully figure out the logic aspect of each section.
You need a better attitude about it. You seem a little obsessive about your score. You won't be able to raise the score until you learn how to study more effectively. It sounds like you have plenty of material to work with. I would go back over that stuff slowly and deliberately
until it starts to sink in. Hire a tutor, take a class, whatever you have to do, but if you are confessing to others that you will never raise your score, you need a serious attitude realignment.
This next quote of yours is more appropriate.
I know I can do it.