mickeyD wrote:I just feel like he's selling himself short. He's peaking at the right time. 30 days is a lot of time guys. We tell ourselves that it's not a lot of time because we're nervous, because we don't want to jinx it, but in the back of our heads we know that we can and will accomplish a lot in 30 days. No, I'm not where I want to be at in games and LR, and yes, it scares me to death, but I know that I'm close. Everyone in this thread, Gev included, is so close.
Now is not the time to play the "I don't want to get my hopes up" card. Now is the time to be confident. We all know that all of us in this thread are very intelligent- exceptionally intelligent. No, I'm not being cocky. I'm saying that while I'm scared to death, I know that I can do a lot in 30 days, and I know that if I go balls out, I will probably get to where I want to be. Let's kill this thing.
I know I really need to keep that attitude up. I wanna kill it in June soo bad, but then all this Oct talk really threw me. To be honest a week or so back I really thought I couldn't do it and would switch to Oct, then I got myself back in the right mindset, and then when Gev told me he pushed his back I relapsed and thought I was Oct- bound too (No fault of his whatsoever, it's just my own insecurities about games) But then a certain sunshine state brought me back to June
I have decided I'm taking in June pretty much no matter what (I'd rather have a score to fall back on even if I do have to retake) so I may as well kill it and be done! I just did a game and seriously spent 40 minutes on it, writing my initial thoughts and thinking about the rules until I extracted all possibilities and implications. I realized after tips from PK and Gev, plus Gev literally walking me through a game in the room for the ridiculous amount of time it took me to do (what.a.trooper!) that I think that I should be taking as long as I need to to not only get all the questions but really
understand the game in all its complexities. Hopefully this will help me, and I think we all have our own "thing" that we need to work on, but overall I think a month is enough time for the issues we all have. (and I think I'm doing worse than everyone else so if I have a sliver of hope you guys are all good
After we kill it in June we need to have a two week long party to distract ourselves until scores come out. And Gev better come because he is still a member of our June study group.
ps keep in mind that this is coming before I have PTed again after my epic fail on 4/21 which led to a PT hiatus, so if I come crying to the board tomorrow night about how I suck and can't do it, don't be extremely shocked.