New member here. Any advice would be appreciated.
I began studying for December's LSAT on October 2. I knew nothing about the LSAT beforehand, and like any test I've ever taken in life, I assumed with my hardcore study habits, I could cram any and all relevant information in the two months and score in the lower 170's. I read through both Powerscore Bibles and a couple practice tests in the first month and began doing nothing but practice tests in November. With two "Books of 10" and eight recent individual PTs (53-60), I was basically averaging 5-6 practice tests a week. Things were going well in the beginning. I was averaging a 167 on the early PTs with a high of 174, but then when I moved on to the recent tests I noticed a huge difference in difficulty. I averaged a 164 for all eight of these with a high of 168. In fact, it wasn't until the final week that I moved up to the recent ones, so the drop in score was not good for my confidence leading up to Saturday morning.
During the final week, I took a week's vacation from work and crammed in the last of my material for 10 hours a day. I thought it was something I could force into my memory. But I realized that LSAT is about adapting to a new method of reading and thinking. This isn't something that can be forced in two months. You need adequate time to develop these skills. By Friday I had given up any hope of ever scoring a 170. I was resigned to scoring a 162-164. I improved not an ounce during the final week, which included over 50 hours of studying.
I had no desire to take the test today (well, yesterday). I knew I needed another 1-2 months to get where I needed to be. I badly wanted to postpone it, but since everyone says February's exams are useless for applying for this cycle, I pretty much had no option. So I took it.
I still never got the timing down. I had to guess on two LR questions in section 1, three RC questions, one LR question in section 3, and because of the mindfuck that was Logic Games, five questions in that section. Based on this and feeling pretty normal/somewhat confident about my other answer choices, I figured I missed at least 20 questions and at most 25. With a generous curve this will put me anywhere in the 161-164 range.
Now, here's my problem. A 161 is will probably get me into the law school I hoped to attend (Top 50). But I don't think I'll ever live down the nagging feeling that maybe not everything is achievable... that there are some things in this world that no matter how hard you work, are out of reach. I honestly feel like I failed. Not so much because of the final result, but because I made zero improvement during the final month and couldn't come close to a goal I had set for myself.
So do I forget about it, get into law school, and never think about it again? Or do I cancel the score, study the RIGHT way the next two months and devour every ounce of relevant material, get my timing down, read The Economist an hour a day, and aim for that illustrious 170 I've always wanted?? And is a 170 even attainable for me? Did I study the completely wrong way? Would two more months help me? Would cancelling be stupid if in two months I'm just as likely to get a 164?
At this point, it's not even about getting a score that will get me into law school. Is about finishing what I had planned on doing. But I have absolutely zero confidence at this point. This past week killed me. I went into this whole thing thinking I was a pretty smart person and could get any score... but by Friday, the day before the test, I pretty much concluded that I may not be that smart, and my ceiling was reached six weeks ago.