Anonymous Bar wrote:I passed! This is after bombing at least 2 MEE essays, failing to finish an MPT essay, and flat out guessing on 80% of MBE (maybe 10 questions I was confident about). I wallowed in self doubt and pity for two months with absolute certainty I failed. And somehow I passed. For those still waiting, despite how you might feel, don't give up hope!
This gives me a lot of hope because you basically captured how I feel about my performance. I don't know that I totally bombed any essays, I just didn't feel particularly confident about 5 of the 6. I also failed to finish an MPT essay. One section of the MBE I felt pretty confident about, but the other was a time-scramble and I felt like I was guessing a lot.
I kind of fluctuate between worrying that I'm going to fail and being comforted by the statistical probability that I will pass based on my school's high pass rate, my strong grades in all of the bar classes that I took in law school, and historically strong bullshitting and writing skills. I think I'm mostly insecure about it because of my preparation. I finished only 30% of the Barbri course. Watched all the lecture videos, did a few sets of practice questions in each area, did the simulated MBE (was barely passing), did the MPT workshop, and practiced one or two essays in each MEE subject area. That's a lot of preparation, but there is so much content I did not master; so much practice material I left completely untouched. I could never make myself read those boring outlines. I didn't really debrief questions that I answered incorrectly.
I think I feel in my heart like I probably passed...but I'm dreading having to prepare again and retake the test and do this wait again. I think mostly I'm just stressed because we don't have a precise date when the results are due out. Looks like probably mid to late October based on historic release dates, but knowing it could be like a week or two...or it could be 4-6 weeks...makes it hard to compartmentalize/calibrate my expectations.