happyhour1122 wrote: GamecockEsq wrote:
For those of us still "patiently" waiting for our results and needing some kind of distraction... (please note: patiently in this context means the act of obsessively checking state bar webpage, reading every blog on the Internet that merely mentions a bar exam pass rate/result/release date, forgetting that life outside of obsessively checking for results exists)... does anyone ever read the blogs on "all4jds" website? It is honestly incredible how nasty some of those people are. I suppose the "animosity" that the site has by not requiring one to create an account gives a**holes the feeling that they are entitled to talk down to everyone.
For a great example, check out this post -- http://all4jds.com/forums/aft/25596
It's the NC Results post and the comments in the thread are just plain nasty - to the point that I felt compelled to speak up and it's not even my state!! (Obviously a South Carolinian due to my previous posts about SC and my username.. shout out to USC women's basketball, National Champs, whoop whoop!)
Now, contrast with this blog.. where people are helpful and encouraging and uplifting.. it's totally night and day. Honestly, I may just be starting to suffer from some serious bar-related rage/depression/you name it (third time taker here, God help me I better have passed this time around) but seriously this profession is hard and nasty enough and the process of taking the bar is terrible on us all. The first time I took the bar, I missed by two points. The second time, I missed by one.. ONE POINT - for the record, I saw red more than I had ever seen in my life when I opened that letter, then followed up with a bottle of tequila. If I didn't have my support system and people that (1) knew I was smart and believed in me, and (2) helped me keep believing in myself when all I wanted to do is crawl in a hole and cry until I died, I would have never been able to make it thus far. THOSE sad excuses for people in the all4jds blog are precisely the types of people who kill ambition and keep pulling people down. Why on earth people feel the need to be so hateful (notice the constant "kill yourself" statements in the blog) is so beyond me. I so very much wish that the website could somehow report those individuals to their state's character and fitness board, because God knows we don't need attorneys in the field with that kind of mentality.
So, to end my rant here.. hats off and pats on the back to all of you for being kind and decent human beings.
2 points...then 1 point...I can't imagine the shock. I was getting goosebumps as I read your post.
This time its definitely going to be a "pass". Did you do anything different from one to two? or two to three?
Oh, it was definitely a shock.. followed by a sucker punch in the gut and a very dark emotional/psychological cloud. Honestly, the best AND the worst part was the support from my family and my fiance. The optimism ("you'll definitely pass next time, look how close you were") was excruciating and most of the time infuriating. What seriously helped me was the hard "get your ass up, put your big girl panties on, and make this exam your b..." attitude from my bar prep professor - and now dear friend - from law school.
My problem with the exam is I have some serious ADHD - not the hyper, can't sit still kind but the racing thoughts/inability to concentrate/etc. kind, but that's really neither here nor there.. I've been treated and working with it for years and years so it's not a problem. BUT how I prepared for the bar WITH my disability was a problem. Together with my professor, we figured out a game plan on how I most effectively learn (ie. Kaplan and Barbri did NOT work), pinpointed where I was messing up, and worked on those issues.
The last two times, I did a fair amount of MBE questions, but I didn't take the time to truly understand the questions. When they ask this type of question, what are they really looking for in the answer? What was the purpose of throwing in that random fact - to distract me or because it's the whole turntable of the answer? Before, I just did question after question after question. For some people, I guess that works. Me - no. For every MBE question I did, I went through every answer - right and wrong - to totally understand. When I read through the questions, I was actively reading - meaning I would write to the side as I was reading the type of question (con law - equal protection - so now I'm on alert to look for a suspect class) and I would circle or underline things as I went through. Those two things together helped me stop going towards the red herrings and the answer choices that would be right if one more little fact was not missing.
I did A LOT of essays, but not the same way I did before. I realized it was not helpful for me to just blindly write essay after essay without figuring out WHY I got x, y, or z wrong or WHERE I was missing points. So, I did a handful of essays per subject and made a "essay process" chart, if you will, for each type of question. My way of thinking and memorizing is very linear. You give me a "step 1, step 2, step 3" approach and I am golden. I memorized the "formula" for a specific type of essay.. ie. contracts essay - first hurdle (or heading) contract formation - RAC - second hurdle (or heading) statute of frauds - RAC - third hurdle (or heading) contract modification - RAC.. you get the picture. A LOT of the essays are repetitive.. they can only change up the types of issues so much.. so my professor and I created many little "master" essay outlines, so when I got to a specific essay, I knew (at least for some parts of an essay) I had a game plan and all I had to do was plug and play with the facts given to me.
I also stopped trying to "learn" the material, and rather practiced how to apply it in a way that was necessary for the bar. The first two times, I spit out rule after rule - I knew them all and I had damn good rule statements - but I had mediocre at best application sections. So, when I practiced essays, I didn't spend time writing out in full length every essay, but I spent time going through the application. Every rule essentially can be broken down in a 1,2,3 element type of style.. so I organized my application in just that way. Find a fact that applies and satisfies every element of the rule before moving on to the conclusion. I also had headings out the wahzoo (which I was complimented on by several Kaplan essay graders so props to my bar professor). The model answers given by big box companies and even the NCBE are terrible. Students don't, and can't in that time frame, write like that. BUT you can write a detailed answer if you have pre-decided headings there and you know something has to go under it (refer back to my contract formation/statute of frauds/modification/etc example). For one, it helped me stay on track and not forget something when my blood pressure and anxiety was through the roof, but also it helps the graders see that you have each piece there and even if its not "right" you made a good, organized argument (ps: if you read through the NCBE model answers almost all of them have alternative routes for correct answers) and possibly pick up some points. To the grader, headings help them go through their checklist on the grade sheet, whereas if its a big massive essay they could easily miss something you wrote or just not understand what you meant and gloss over it.
My moral to the story - this time around I learned how to play PacMan Bar Edition. The bar is just like the little yellow pacman trying to gobble up as many points as necessary to reach the end. If you try to eat all of them, you're probably going to run into something that kills you. Learn *your* strategy and methodology - take a step back and look at why you miss this or that and why you always get this or that right. For me, doing 5479057097515 MBE questions and essays was NOT the right answer. I actually learned so much this time around about how to study effectively (especially with ADHD) that I'm now mentoring for the current bar prep takers. Fingers crossed that I actually pass this time around, so my credibility doesn't go right down the toilet..