justaguest wrote:I felt totally confident - that I was going to fail. That feeling started somewhere around the LSATs and continued until I got my exam results.
To me, the bar exam felt completely insurmountable. We spend three years in law school with this massive pass/fail exam hanging over our heads. I never, in a million years, thought I would pass it the first time. I used Barbri. I definitely didn't study as hard as some of my friends. I did maybe 5-6 hours per day while they seemed to always be studying. Add to that, when we would have group study sessions, I never seemed to know as much as they did (you'd think this would make me study more). I also realized pretty early on that part of what I was feeling was concern about embarrassment when I failed. I was friends with some really smart people that I knew were going to pass and I didn't want to be the only one who failed. I didn't want those looks of pity when we got together for beers. Finally, the previous year's pass rate was gnawing at me - it was around 60% for my school. There were people who I thought would pass their first time out that did not. That was a real blow.
The weekend prior to the exam my personality was a mix of nervous, angry, stressed, and excited that it was nearly over. No one who wasn't taking the bar wanted to be around me (nor did I want to be around them).
But, amazingly, I passed not one but two bar exams on my first try. Don't let your lack of confidence get in your way. You can do this.
That's awesome, and congratulations! I appreciate your posts and advice! I also appreciate your perspective on the whole thing. Here we are, years after taking that horrible LSAT and then slaving away for three years at our respective law schools, all studying at "Barbri University" together to sit for the one test that matters most. It's a whirlwind. Physically, I am still recovering from the mad dash to the Bar. It was exhausting to prep, stressful to take it, and then typing out those ten essay answers wiped me out. Yup, I'm still recovering. I spent most of this week watching lots of junky TV on XFINITY ON DEMAND and catching up on chores. Still doing those. But now I am dying to get the results, just like my friends said I would. They also told me to stop worrying. If they knew I was even reading things on this forum (after just signing up today) they would batter me, hahaha. It's hard on all of us. But somehow people make it. Thanks again.