I've never checked or posted on this site while I was preparing for the Bar. But I feel inclined to give some support to those who were not successful this time around.
I've been there. Multiple times. I understand your frustration, your fears, your heartache. I understand getting kicked in the gut by those you love, those who just don't understand what you're going through. I know the desire to just crawl into a hole and never come out again. I've done Barbri, I've tried other types of bar review courses. Even after I passed, I look back and think about how the whole ordeal was a terrible and truly difficult process.
But you are a fighter. You are smart. You've proven that to the world already. Now all you gotta do is prove it to yourself.
Wipe your tears and tell the California Bar to "Go f*** yourself." And take it to poundtown.
Not even joking. You got this.
Practice, practice, practice. Memorize the big black letter rules. Don't get distracted with legal minutiae. Issue spot right up til the next Bar exam. Some people need a rigid schedule. If that's you, impose such a schedule on yourself. Some people, like me, are working full time. If you are too, don't worry. You can do it when you get home. Do MBEs in your free time. Read and re-read old Bar exam essay questions. Outline the answers. Use short
, legible outlines per topic because seriously, just reading and re-reading hundreds of pages of Barbri/Themis outline isn't helping you. Know the big ticket issues front and back. Have a solid game plan for the PTs. Get used to writing a concise essay within the time limit. Do you have a learning disability? Get a (good) tutor. You have no money? Get a flexible job. Do what you have to do.
And don't scare yourself. Some programs like Adaptibar will chart your progress in percentages. You may see 60% one day, 90% another. Screw the numbers. Don't worry too much if you haven't been doing twenty or a hundred MBEs a day. Review the f*** out of questions you missed. You missed a few issues in your latest practice essay? Don't worry--just review the sh*t out of it so you never miss it again.
Personally, I didn't use a set schedule. I did about 500 MBEs to practice and issue spotted every Bar essay I could find. I was doing max 6 hours to review a day. I found a small bar review course near my house to refresh my memory on those pesky little Bar issues I never could truly memorize (rule against perpetuities galore) and to get some feedback on a few essays I wrote without notes. I used ten page outlines and almost never checked the Barbri-level longer outlines I had at my disposal. I didn't memorize rule statements or headings or whatever BS some bar review courses tout. But I knew my sh*t. It all doesn't sound like enough prep work but we all have different schedules and different ways of taking in massive amounts of information.
You can do this.
You are going to pass.
Come July, I'll be expecting you in poundtown as well.