6TimeFailure wrote:pancakes3 wrote:what's the endgame here, friend?
Employment as a lawyer is a long shot for me given my graduation date (2001). So I am not trying to pass the bar in hopes of finding employment as a lawyer. The two main reasons I am still taking the Feb bar:
1. Validate my education and prove to my self I can pass it.
2. My mom. She is a senior citizen. Even though she has repeatedly said she is fine with whatever I do, bar passage or not, I know that deep down she wants me to officially be a lawyer. I want to pass this before she passes away. I have recurring dreams of being by her deathbed apologizing to her for never passing the bar. I do not want that to become a reality.
I've debated back and forth between sharing, and this story will likely do nothing for you, but still.....
My father is in a profession that had an exam somewhat like the bar exam. He had his reasons, but he could not pass that exam for years. He took it quite a few times, and just couldn't pass. It was sort of something we never talked about as I grew up, we just knew it was like his personal Moby Dick and no one said a thing. My father still made money and had a rewarding career, even without having passed the exam.
He passed it about 8 years before he retired. He never made a big deal about it. It just meant that much to him to have finally accomplished that goal, even if it made no practical difference in his life. I think it made a world of difference to him, and he just seemed a little more at peace with himself having slain the beast.
I think if reason #1 was your only reason, it would be enough. I think when you finally get that passage notification, it will mean so much to you. I know its going to mean a hell of a lot to me when I pass.