I've never died, so statistically speaking I'm going to live forever. Or at least for the next few days, probably.
And so will you. At some point you’ll reach a state of existence where you don't need to study for this particular bar exam. When the anxiety of the bar approached, that thought kept me going—even looking forward to the end.
Yes, the bar will eventually be over, just like how we’ve already passed through these fleeting months. Wow, so ~moving and unforgettable~ like graduation week when we signed each other's yearbooks with throbbing hearts and the popular kids had to buy inserts to get even more comments DAMN YOU
On the other hand, brooding about the bar at this point doesn't impact the past or the future but takes away your energy in the present. Time travel costs energy, as confirmed by Stephen King.
If you’re obsessing over whether you’ve done enough in the past two months, you’re going back to the past. If you’re anxious and having nightmares about what kind of questions will appear, you’re jumping ahead to the future and to conclusions.
What am I trying to get at? The considerations above were important earlier in your bar prep, but now is the time to conserve your mental energy.
It’s totally natural and tempting to worry (and have nightmares)…and you are not alone! Twice a year, thousands upon thousands of examinees fall prey to their own survival instincts. So whenever you find yourself in another era, breathe and gently bring yourself back to the present.
You'll probably be fueled by adrenaline and panic anyway, but being in your top shape can't hurt. You'll need the energy to keep you going for 18 hours, to say “no” to the voice that seduces you saying maybe you should just give up. You'll need it to face unexpected contingencies like SofTest failure, insomnia, and getting lost in the neighborhood during lunch (which all happened to me last time).
Have you done all you could with preparation? If you've done your best, have no regrets.
- It's too late for that now. The cards have already been dealt. It's happening.
- It's also too early for that. You will have plenty of time afterward to relive the experience in an endless loop.
Instead, focus on not being pulled into their pace over the next final week: Organize your outlines, cooked essays, and other review material to bring to your hotel/motel. Have your Ziploc® bag ready. Remember to "be arrogant" on Tuesday. Consider not answering the essays in order, depending on how comfortable you feel about each subject.
Check off one day at a time: __ Tuesday __ Wednesday __ Thursday
Every day you can look forward to something nice, like dinner or smashing your face into a pillow.
Do your best and good luck. I'll be waiting.
I know for most of you, this is your first time attempting the bar. You might be panicking or feeling cocky or feeling utterly confused. All natural reactions.
However, the exam has already begun. How you carry yourself from today, up until you confirm that all your answers have been delivered, is going to impact your performance or at the least your mental state.
I humbly hope that my words allow you to call forth your best efforts.