While we're at a venting thread, and looking for some solution/sympathetic minds...
I'm progressively finding my clerkship a little unbearable and I'm wondering if this type of behavior is normal (and I'm just stressed) or if my co-clerk is actually just bizarre. My co-clerk is roughly 5 months more senior than I am so he/she has seen a lot more stuff and has obviously had more time to learn things. That alone is not the problem; I like that there is a staggering. But this said co-clerk will nonstop talk about how many opinions he/she turned out over the weekend, how he/she did not sleep at all to get this work done, how our judge messages him/her at all hours of the night about work and non-work related stuff, how he/she is the judge's favorite clerk (initially, I thought he/she was joking. However, this comment has been repeated several times over the last few months so I'm not quite sure if it's really a joke anymore), overanalyzes every interaction he/she has had with judge. Now, I tolerated this behavior as some weird social quirk.
Now, this said clerk is blaming me for being a liability (I meet all my deadlines, and sometimes beat it by a day; no complaints have been made by my judge) because, my relative slowness compared to his/her productivity eventually leads him/her to do my work for me, is what he/she said. I snapped at him/her few times, telling him/her directly that "this is really ineffective communication and I haven't received any complaints from judge. I also don't plan on losing sleep over this clerkship and pushing myself to work like I would in big law." To be clear, there is no expectation to work crazy hours like there is for some clerkship; frankly, no other clerk in this chambers' history has been gunning this hard. This particular clerk allegedly does not sleep to get work done.
My confrontation has led him/her to tone down a bit but this situation is still insufferable (obsession over our judge has not stopped).
I am sick and tired of this said clerk and I dread going into work because of him/her. The other co-clerk also finds him/her "oppressive" and they have in fact had a bit more robust confrontation earlier in the year, which led to the problem clerk to cry, at which point, I consoled. But his/her rant has gotten out of control and I am so looking forward to him/her leaving this clerkship, as horrible as this sounds.
I really don't think talking to this person will solve the problem because it will only make the situation tense I think. What are some mental mantra to adopt to survive this without going crazy. It's also really demotivating.