kykiske wrote:I've been seeing a therapist. Been seeing one for awhile now, actually.
But the sessions just do not seem to help. I want to believe that things will improve. I want to believe that I've done my absolute best. But if I have been doing my absolute best--in my mind at least--I would not be in this situation.
I blame myself a lot because I just feel so incompetent when compared to my peers. It feels as if I have to expend 10x more effort just to get somewhere near my peers.
For instance, I've clerked at firms in the past. And it just felt like my peers just "got it." Like, they'd immediately impress everyone because of easily they spotted every issue and analyzed every issue--even the ones the attorneys did not think of.
For me, however, I expend way more time, and I still miss issues, and I still feel as if I'm just an incompetent burden that the attorneys have to put up with. And that's the case even though I put in a lot of time and effort.
I just do not have any confidence left in myself.
If it's any help at all, I've been practicing for 3 years now and feel the same way. Sometimes the partner or senior associates will actually think (at least say that) i've done a great job but I definitely don't have that self-reassurance. I suppose it builds over time? Anyone else feel this way or has felt this way in the past but has overcome it?