Anonymous User wrote:Pretzel_Logic wrote:Anonymous User wrote:The more I think about it, the only right thing to do seems to be to get myself treated and tell the truth to the recruiters, even I it means I can't serve because of it. It's both the ethical choice and the correct thing to do for myself.
Anyone disagree or see another angle I'm missing?
Anon, I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling with this. I have friends in the military who have PTSD/depression/major anxiety and they have dodged treatment because they're afraid of getting sidelined, and watching them suffer is just awful. Please, please put your mental health first. I know it feels like a surrender, but there is literally nothing more important than getting help for yourself. I've been through a couple major depressive episodes myself and it is just shitty from every perspective. Get the help you need; once you do that, it really will open your mind up and you'll feel so much less crappy. It was amazing once I emerged from that prison how much brighter everything felt. I've fought depression through barzam study and then through unemployment, and while I'm not in the pit right now, several of my family members are and my anxiety levels are through the roof. I'm doing everything I can do to keep it in check but I've had to reach out to get some support. And I only figured out how to do that because depression just about took me out in law school before I got help.
tl;dr please do what you need to do to help yourself and pm me if you need to talk.
Anon you were replying to here: I know. And I know it's wrong of me, but even though I know I'm right to get help, part of my brain is screaming: weakling! Loser! You should tough it out! What's wrong with you?
Doing my best to ignore that.
That's the depression talking. Depression is a douchebag and he can get real loud, but just remind yourself he's wrong. Admitting you need help is strength.