Postby lishi » Wed Mar 12, 2008 8:17 pm
Today has been a rough day for me.
I've been on TLS for over a year now, and I've had my ups and downs with it. I was addicted and an avid poster in the Lounge. Then after the June LSAT I was really depressed about my score and I quit for two months to prepare for the Sept LSAT. I came back still disappointed with my LSAT score, and now no one in the Lounge even knows who I am. I've had great happy moments on TLS, and some pretty depressing ones. Today is a depressing one.
I feel like every thread is talking about job prospects, debt, and ranked schools. I've been blessed with acceptances to schools that I never thought I'd get into. When I first came to TLS all I wanted was to get into a top 100 school, even when applying this Sept that's all I wanted. But listening and seeing everyone else cycle's make me sad. I feel like everyone here is always better than me. Better LSAT. Better GPA. Better soft factors. Better hair.
So now I've been accepted to schools that some would be dying to get into, and all I can think about is will I ever find a job at these schools?? I'm so worried I'm going to end up doing temp work making less than $50,000 and not being able to support myself. And I know everyone says work hard, kick ass, spend every second studying, but what if that still isn't good enough. What if once again everyone is better than me, gets better jobs than me, better grades than me, and still has better hair then me.
Everyone here is going to all these amazing schools and are so confident in themselves and what they will accomplish, and I'm just not that sure. I know I want to be a lawyer. I know it's something I'm passionate about. But what if that isn't good enough. What if I'm just not good enough.